| Wow. |
[08 Mar 2007|03:21pm] |
I do not use this anymore. Someone recently somehow happened upon this and my cheeks quickly reddened. The last time I even wrote in this was over two years ago. I am not this person anymore. The basic shell is still there but a lot of growing and MOVING has occurred since. A LOT OF LIFE HAS HAPPENED ....would be the best way of putting it. I would rather not delete this though because one could definitely track my ridiculous mind and the changes I went through in the years that I wrote in this little online journal. Myspace came. Myspace then blew up. And I started to "blog" on there. Most of which I deleted down the line and replaced in a new livejournal. Though the newer livejournal I have not written in almost a year. I still "blog" on Myspace sometimes. So....if you'd like....hit up my second journal here.Or catch me on Myspace. |
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| H + E 4ever |
[29 Jan 2005|11:52pm] |
mark it in bark.
So I decided today I was moving out. I couldn't afford this place. I was getting nowhere in the Quad Cities so I called my parents. "Until this nanny thing starts up", I told them, "can I come back and live with you guys temporarily?" Then I called my old Taco Bell and spoke with Karen about possibly getting my job back while I'm living in Galesburg. Of course, I totally bullshitted and said that I'd prolly be here till around May or so even though I figured it'd be less. Then I called Nick's parents about arrangements for putting Nick's furniture and things here into their hands.
As soon as I got off the phone with Nick's stepmom my phone rings. It's Lynn with nanniesplus.com. She said all she needs to do is talk to three of my references and then by this next weekend I should start receiving phone calls from families and doing interviews with them on the phone. It will then just be up to me in choosing which family sounds most comfortable to me. I was also only going to be asking for $300-$350 starting out because that's what Erica started out with but Lynn was like, "No, lets ask for $400." Hell yeah! I could handle $400 a week! No problem.
So I've made a run to two Hy-Vee's and gotten a bunch of boxes. This is the worst part. I hate moving with a passion. HATE IT. HATE IT. HATE IT. And before I had Nick to move with. This time I'm all by myself and it's so damn boring and stressful.
And then I have these numerous bills and odds and ends things that I have to tie up before I leave which will be impossible. Arg. Woe is me!
But I'm going to be moving close to my best friend and that's the greatest thing ever. A fresh start of sorts. I'll have the world at my fingertips.
WEEE! I'm outta' here in 1-2 months.
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| i can be quiet |
[29 Jan 2005|03:58pm] |
Hello everyone out there,
Does anyone or does anyone KNOW anyone who would be willing to house me for around two months or less just until this nanny thing goes through. My best friend did the nanny thing...applied...and was in another state in less than a month.
I doubt anyone is this full of hospitality but I really can't afford the place I'm in. I need to get to an in-between neutral place where I'm not paying the sky high GAS BILL for heat that I have no control over. (If it was my choice, I'd just freeze.)
I'd buy my own food and stuff. I just need access to a bathroom to bathe and a small place to sleep.
No rapists please.
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| stealing identities |
[29 Jan 2005|01:24pm] |
I always write in xanga now. It's actually been a long time, it seems, since I've written a REAL entry in this. I just don't like all the annonymous prying. It got old. I got tired of the celebrity that comes with lj. But it seems a lot of people have been dropping like flies, like it's hot, whatever from the lj scene. So I'm not alone in leaving this fading trend.
Anyway, I suppose I'll update here about the nanny thing. I'm finally pursuing it hardcore. I'm taking it seriously and putting faith in myself that I have good enough references and plenty of experience. Erica is building the excitement with me. Which is scary. Can't get too excited. Can't get too excited. I'm afraid for the 'not happening' part. There's just no way it won't though. All written out. The final draft looks rather nice. Goodness. I can only imagine. It will be a fairy tale. Definitely.
I need boxes. I'm going to start packing so it can be as smooth of a transition as possible. I have so much shit. If I start now I should be good. Then I'll need to get all that's Nick's to his parents. All that's mine to...hopefully my parents. It's going to be rough but it CAN be done.
Nick doesn't even know yet. He doesn't know I've filled out three applications to three different nanny agencies. One of which, Jenn Moness, Erica's boss is going to call on Monday to give them a personal and up front reference right away. Nick doesn't even know. We had a phone conversation earlier this week. I can't remember what day....but it was awful. We hit heads SO HARD sometimes. I'm just tired of it. Tired of the burden I've become. Whatever happens happens. Whatever's meant to be will be. It's just crazy how much can happen in one week and how much one person can miss. For all I know, when Nick calls again I'll have a family set up and everything.
Hmmm....I'd very much like it if I could just move out of here for sure. Just pack up and move out of here. So, therefore, I wouldn't have to worry about any future bills adding to the collection I already have to deal with before I head off to New York. My parents won't let me stay with them though. I just know it. And though William and I are on good terms again, it'd be too awkward and bold for me to stay there.
Ah well. Here's my update.
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| my personality album |
[21 Jan 2005|02:42am] |
I have this book that I wrote in when I was like 10. It's one of those fill in the blank deals. I'm recopying it here. It's rather cute. I was rather cute. No errors were corrected.
( children are innocent )
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| all my fingers and toes |
[19 Jan 2005|09:35am] |
Today is my birthday.
I turn 20 today.
I was born very early this morning on this day....
.....20 years ago.
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| tsunami |
[11 Jan 2005|05:55pm] |
My goodness. This tsunami thing is finally starting to become comprehendable to me. Just a little bit of course...but I'd really like to help. I don't know what it is about this disaster but if I had the money and resources to go to Sri Lanka I would. If there was some sort of pragram I could join to travel over there and help I would. So if anyone comes across anything...lemme know.
Check these out:
Before and After
a few videos
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| Dead Like Me......dead? |
[09 Jan 2005|12:23pm] |
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So I am reading that my favorite show, Dead Like Me, has been cancelled by Showtime, but that it may get picked up by the WB. Okay first, this show honestly has been the most inspirational, comforting, pleasantly thought provoking show I have ever watched ever! I can not lose my show. Especially with ends still needing to be tied and such. But Showtime has decided to drop it. Fuckers!
YET NOW the WB is going to pick it up?! No. See....now as much as I LOVE and ADORE the show and want for the ends to be tied in front of my own eyes on my television set weekly for atleast ONE MORE SEASON...I would rather it just not happen if the WB is going to do it. They are SO going to butcher this fucking show! It's not going to have that edge which makes it so wonderful. They'll try to make it into some sappy drama or some shit and I really couldn't handle seeing the characters I have loved so much deteriorate into some "7th Heaven/Dawson's Creek" hell.
| Which Dead Like Me character are you? Daisy You are a new reaper to the bunch, but have won the world over with your charm and good looks. You were an actress in your former life, giving blow jobs to actors like Clark Gable to get movie roles. You feel destined for stardom but are stuck living as a reaper, needing someone to love you. 
| Click Here to Take This Quiz
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| celebrity welfare |
[09 Jan 2005|12:01am] |
So I guess Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston have officially seperated.
For some reason this is sad to me.
I was really hoping they'd be one of those few Hollywood couples who last.
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| diamonds are a girl's best friend |
[28 Dec 2004|03:22pm] |
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Well, one of the X-mas presents Nick gave me was a gift card to JCPenney to get my hair stripped and redyed. I wanted blonde. I had high hopes for blonde BUT blonde just couldn't be done. I guess red is the hardest color to strip out of here. I had two women working on my hair and they were both really nice so the 3 hour session wasn't all that bad. They also had a more recent issue of US Weekly there that I never bought so that was a plus. Yeah, shuddup. I'm addicted to Star and US. Now I have a very light, light strawberry blonde color. I didn't like it at all until today when I styled it myself for the first time. It's adorable. I curled it a whole bunch then put a red ribbon in my hair and I look like a doll. CuteCute. New hair colors are always fun!
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| Christmas 2004 |
[26 Dec 2004|12:20pm] |
This Christmas has sent me through such a whirlwind of emotions I feel like my head will be spinning for days. It went from very depressing to delightful to frustrating to upsetting to disturbing to confusing to surprising to quite pleasant.
I got the one thing I wanted the most more than anything and I really didn't think I was going to get it and that was Dead Like Me - Season 1 - box set. I wanted that so bad and Nick up and surprised me and got it. It was the last thing I opened, and that's because he had wrapped it in green paper, then rubber banded it with small pine tree branches, and then hid it in the tree. It was actually from "SANTA" and "SANTA" must have run into a pine tree when he brought it over. .....Nick can be quite cute.
I really got quite a bit of good stuff this year...and....I don't feel like I deserve the majority of it.
Bottom line: This Christmas didn't turn out to be as bad as I had predicted. The most drama-filled X-mas I can ever remember...but not a bad one.
( my gifts )
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| Merry Christmas Eve! |
[24 Dec 2004|02:36pm] |
I have an impressive number of marshmellows in my little mug of hot chocolate.
Hot chocolate. Yuuuuum. It makes me all warm inside.
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| everytime i come around yo' city |
[22 Dec 2004|12:36am] |
I just "blinged" my phone.
Yeah, I went to Hobby Lobby and bought some of these little clear & pink crystal gem dealies and super glued them onto the back of my cell phone.
Now I'm "hot" like Paris Hilton.
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| keep it in your ear |
[14 Dec 2004|04:20pm] |
In the new apt. It's quite cute. I can paint it however I want to and am going to get reimbursed for the paint as well. So I've had quite a few decorating ideas swirling through my head. Not quite sure what to do with the bedroom. That is MY bedroom so I especially want it to really be a room that makes me happy.
Erica leaves this weekend. Back to NY. In the end, can I blame her? Really? I will always feel a connection with her no matter where she goes. She will always be my best friend.
Nick is at his mom's. We haven't been getting along. I don't know if he really is going to stay there for the next two weeks till he leaves for Iraq or what but oh well.....I guess. There goes the big Christmas I've been looking forward to since August. The tree is here but undecorated. I can't wrap the lights around it all by myself. We've been bickering back and forth like crazy for the last couple weeks. And before that he was still impossibe to deal with half of the time. I had tried real hard to be a lovely and quiet and un-nagging girlfriend but I could only take two months of him putting little effort forth in the relationship. EMOTIONALLY.....NOT MONEY. I had told him I didn't want to be engaged anymore while he's gone. We just haven't been able to see each other the way we used to before all this recent stress. Maybe when he gets back we can date again and feel normal together....but right now....we can't stand each other. Blah.
I have ways to stay calm. Talked to people I haven't talked to in awhile. One person in particular. A LONG while. It's been quite nice, I must say, and I do hope it is an ongoing thing.
I recently bought two pet gerbils. They are named George and Reggie. Another small tribute to the show I love so dearly, Dead Like Me. HIGHLY RECOMMEND.
This ridiculous job I have now.....GOD(!)....lame lame lame.....I transcribe. All I do there is sit from 7-3:30 and listen to recorded messages and type in the information given. It's a great job. It really is. Well, they called everyone that got a job there through Sedona (temp. agency) off last week and I didn't have to work yesterday or today either. I'm freaking out. Not sure how I'm going to pay any bills at the end of this month let alone finish Christmas shopping.
This is going to be a really shitty Christmas.
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| no joke |
[19 Nov 2004|09:04am] |
So I've actually heard from someone I personally know that this works.
If you click on this link: http://www.freephotoiPods.com/?r=11800300 you could get a FREE IPOD. No joke. Those little fuckers are expensive(!) but cool to have.
All you'll have to do is sign up for one of the trial offers. For some, you DO have to have credit card information (use your parents) but I promise you, if you sign up for something with a free trial you will get credit for it before the trial even runs out and then all you have to do is cancel or whatever. I was nervous about that at first but no worries.
The hard part is the second part of the whole deal. You then have to get 10 people to do exactly this. Stick with one of the trials for a certain amount of time.
I signed up for the realrhapsody player 14 day trial. It ends the 25th but I got credit for it today and just called and cancelled my trial. (They actually in turn EXTENDED my trial and are still sending me a cancellation e-mail today I can reply to whenever.)
Please help me out. http://www.freephotoiPods.com/?r=11800300
It'd be cool. http://www.freephotoiPods.com/?r=11800300
Who DOESN'T want a FREE IPOD?! http://www.freephotoiPods.com/?r=11800300
Oh, and Nathan I signed up for this under you...so uhhhh yeah....where's my free gift? T-shirt? Maybe? :)
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| boy stuff |
[18 Nov 2004|03:55am] |
I'm not ready for Nick to leave. I'm not. I'm not. Barely over a month till he leaves. Just barely. I like seeing guy things all over the apt. mixed among my girl things. I like seeing his toothbrush next to mine in the bathroom. His underwear in the corner. Tools lying aimlessly on the counter. Change EVERYWHERE. It's weird once a person has become this much a part of your life. Everything so intertwined. Things. Feelings. Lives. yada yada
( i really should be in bed....holy cow )
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| cable |
[18 Nov 2004|02:09am] |
i could watch howard stern for hours. it's sad. it's addicting.
must.....see....more....blurred out.....tits.
blind date is addicting too. i could watch that show for hours as well.
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